Here we go again and I am going to give it my best shot…
I have received many DM’s, e-mails and phone calls asking for another Stripped Down Online Class, in-person workshops and mentorships, and my response has been “I’m not sure.”
I also get a lot of Where are you? Are you ok? What’s going on?
I have been MIA for the better part of the last year in regards to social media and interaction within the community. I simply went dark for the most part with short spurts of activity here and there, a strategy I would not recommend for any business owner.
It’s difficult to know what to share, when to share it and how much to share. Frankly, as I write this I am terrified.
I know, I know… I am the one who wholeheartedly believes in being open, straightforward and vulnerable because there is so much strength in that BUT sometimes, even for me, it’s a really difficult thing to do.
Some of you know my father was diagnosed with a terminal illness nearly 7 years ago now. They gave us 3-5 year and, bless his heart, he has hung on like a champ. Through the loss of my mother, difficulties with my personal life and great big wins and great big blows in my business he has been there, he has been MY ROCK, my daddy. I love him so much….
So back to the that tightrope walk, as well as creating some safe boundaries for me over the next few weeks.
My father’s heath has been gradually declining; it has culminated recently in a surgery followed shortly thereafter by a stroke, and now a surgery that is quite risky on the day I leave for WPPI!
Obviously my initial reaction was “I am not fucking going anywhere.” However, this was unacceptable to my father. Much like what I went through a few years ago with my mother when we received a massive hit right before my trip to WPPI and she insisted that I must go on, he is now doing the same.
To respect his wishes and be the woman he raised me to be, I will be flying out the morning of his surgery and heading to WPPI to teach a nearly sold out Photo walk and Platform class. Under strict instructions, regardless of what happens in surgery I am to bring you my A GAME, share with you all that I have to give.
Because of my lack of presence (for many reasons) I know I am going to hear a lot of how are you? what’s been going on? where have you been? why did you disappear? I am hoping that this post will alleviate some of those interactions because frankly, I don’t know what the status of my father will be, and I am not there to talk about me.
I am there to add education with the maximum amount of value to our community. That must be my primary focus.
It has been difficult all the way around guys, I am not even going to try and sugar coat this shit.
The loss of my mother, managing and fighting for Eli’s rights, my business and my personal life trials have all certainly created the most painful, difficult and challenging years I have ever encountered.
The sum of the last 2 years has been far more brutal than all of the previous years combined. But one foot in front of the other.
To my students and industry friends, in order to respect my father’s wishes I would ask that any well wishes, words of advice or comfort be left here prior to or after our time together, because both my father and I want your time to be special and about providing you an amazing experience.
I am so humbled and grateful that you want to work with me, I promise despite all of the circumstances, and perhaps because of them, I will fill you with all that I have (and trust me that is a lot).
I am looking forward to seeing those of you who sold out my photo walk, working with those of you coming to my platform class and just seeing many of my dear friends.
I have to thank Sakara Birdsong, Dixie Divine, Alicia Macias Jenna Macias Lacy Roberts, Erin Blackwell Brannan, Christian Hernandez, Stephanie Wells, Paige Rynberg, Amy Peacock, LeZandra McGinnis, Jerry Willis and many others who have helped me through, and actually many times held me up, during this time. I appreciate you more than I could ever articulate. Thank you for loving me.
I also need to thank Theresa at WPPI as well as Adam, Merrie and Anne at ShootQ / Simply Color for their understanding,patience and support during this time.
If you would like to attend my platform class at WPPI here is a link with information: WPPI PLATFORM CLASS
Also I just got an email this morning that one spot has opened up for my Photowalk! If you are interested you can check it out here: WPPI PHOTOWALK